sleepyhead

2006-03-25T02:36:00.000+08:00

hmmm... its been such a long time since i last touched this blog... i thought i was gonna abandon it, but i guess not.. i jus felt like writing how i feel nowadays.. so mani things haf happened and i guess my life did take a turn.. i nv used to know hw to dance but nw i m in a dance and drama cca... hmmm isn't it funni hw things turn out? its like it hits on u before u even know it... n i guess this is why i m feelin this way.. i dunno if i still do haf feelings fr him... its been realli a long time but then i dunno... haizzz things happen fr a reason rite? but what is mine? i will never know... sometimes i would jus prefer if i could jus be hu i m in front of pple always laughin.. but i guess it will nv happen... i m someone hu thinks too much alreadi, to the extent tat i frighten myself... i dunno what i should do nw.. i feel like a lost lamb trying to find her mother.. i m even nt sure bout what i do? is it rite? or should i backoff? they say tat i m someone who is a pushover n would jus gif in to a person.. i m like tat but u cant force mi to change rite? i dun wan to go to a point where everithing goes haywire and pple scolding each other or hating each other i always seem to be the middle person.. it sucks to the core... haizz i wun blabber animore... shall stop here

2004-11-25T13:09:00.000+08:00

finally!!! exams are over!! even thugh it is kinda laggy.. i finish the o's like 3 days ago? hehe.. anyway currently at lee ming's hse slackin before i go over to the student leader's camp later... so tired i feel like dying actualli.. gonna haf so many days of activities.. wonder if i m even able to cope hehe... well staying over at her hse was kinda fun.. i slept oni at about 3 plus? cant realli sleep but at least i managed to... actualli was supposed to go over to rob's hse but she could not make it at the last minute.. oh well i guess this is also quite fun... hehe... i even slept in a tent!!! this would be the first time i m doin it... hehe found out that i haf a deprived childhood.... i haven been doin alot of fun things... hehe i tell u i am definitely gonna do those things i haf nv done before at least once... wanna haf a feel of it i guess... hehe actualli the reason why i haf nv done all these is becuz in a way mi parents dun realli allow us to.. well dun realli blame them i mean whose parents dun worry bout their children? hehe well okie enough bout that... gonna go grab something to eat hehe till next time!!

2004-09-17T16:24:00.000+08:00

hehe... lets see one month n 3 days.. that is how long i have not been updatin my blog.. i veri lazy to update liao.. so will do it when i can.. hehe.. well i practicalli slacked today.. dun haf to retake chinese so i can sleep fr as long as i like n rest.. this prelims sure fail one.. jus see by hw much oni.. been studyin fr the past few days and trying to absorb as much as i can but then liek everitime i see the bed, my eyes feel sleepy.. i am finalli back to my old self where i was happy... no more the gal hu was sad n depressed always.. well i learned things the hard way but i pulled myself together... well... now so damn bored... is realli stay at home n rot kind... i cant go out cuz parents wan mi to study.. still remember that time studying history parents still force mi to read china say dunno china is a rising power nw so i mus know their history.. then i am like -.- i mean like i like to study which one then i study lor.. so i jus open to that page n show show awhile i studying that chap.. sometimes parents can be so weird.. they tell u to do things that u dun wanna do.. also dunno why... but then sometimes dun they realise that we r actualli growin up n not the little kids that we were before? i guess in their hearts we will never grow up... but at least gif us some freedom to do the things we wan rite? no point caging us up cuz the more they do that, the more we will rebel or even rely on them too much until when we suffer a setback we would not know hw to deal with it... okie i think i talk too much liao.. haha today jus listening to music n enjoying life i would say before it is back to books again.. at least once o's are over it is ultimate freedom fr mi... haha jus waiting patiently fr that day to come.. well goin to take a nap nw before studying... hehe

2004-08-14T18:49:00.000+08:00

well pple haf been tellin mi to update my blog.. but wat the heck... i am lazy n watever shit... my mood is always swinging around... i regret my decision yesterday.. something i should jus shut up... i dunno wat to do animore.. is love something that u push around? i am like listening to the song my happy ending n yeah so much fr my happy ending... i am so dumb... why cant i jus listen to my head once n not my heart? well surprisingly not a single tear fell.. i guess i am able to control my emotions now.. my heart has been broken into pieces that is gonna be hard to be pieced together... so mani things are going through my mind... so many pple haf scolded me as dumb and what have u... but then as this phrase goes love is blind.. i agree completely.. n also u cant do anithing once a person has made a decision... i found out that this time my tears did not flow but the pain in my heart is unbearable... i wanna cry but i cant... this is the veri first time that i am so affected for more than a day.. somebody save mi from this pain... but i guess i cant do anithing bout it now but jus live my life as per normal and for all i know, i will jus meet a better guy who is able to treasure mi... haizzz.. today the test was damn sucky.. cant even concentrate... but at least i still managed to do quite alot of qns...then managed to be cheered up for awhile by my frens.. i wanna thank them for everything they have done.. i promise that i will be fine by monday as it is a special day for my family... i must n i hope i will... well thats all for today... when i haf the mood then i will write... so sorry if i took such along time to update..

2004-07-29T19:42:00.000+08:00

i came back with another entry... well today was a real hard time for mi... trying hard to concentrate and also in my mind a thousand things were going through my mind... i tried so hard to forget but i guess i still cant let go... i dun understand the things he did, but i jus haf to live with this wound in my heart... jus trying to forget everything and return to how we used to be before all these... will i be able to? but i haf a feeling inside mi telling mi that i will jus break down if i see him again... i lied to them saying i will be fine n ok by today... but i guess i fell too deep to even feel better n ok... i wanna try to forget him, treating him like my bro again... but hw to? when i see him it jus reminds mi of what he did to mi... well i jus haf to forget.. mus forget... i mus be strong n live my life as usual... i cant allow this to affect mi animore... everithing that happened, i will jus treat it as a nightmare that felt so real... i hope that he will be ok too n all the best to his studies n not gt affected by everithing that is happening... good luck to u.... but at least today was not only a sad day at least my frens did cum n cheer mi up and talk to mi... so i would like to thank them n i will be fine... i wun disappoint u all...

2004-07-16T20:59:00.000+08:00

it seems like a thousand years since i updated rite? hehe... well can say i was lazy and jus kinda like to sleep and slack... well if i wanna put it in better terms, then it would be because i was busy with school work.. but yeah jus excuses... hehe.... so ummmm so many things have happened like i always say... i kinda have tests practically everyday... kinda rare that i would have the urge to write today again.. but i doubt it would be a long one... cuz it is only when i am not in a good mood that i would want to write a long entry... now i am jus really content with my life... i have been feeling really happy this few days.. cuz my parents have quietened down and also i am more focused on my studies now... i cant realli play now... my maths have really been going downhill... got to realli work hard before i would be unable to even secure a place in poly... i know that people would hate talking about studies but i have to... cuz if i do not, i may jus slack and start putting other things as my first priority... and after all, i don't wanna have any regrets in this little time i have to study... so welll i would stop here... and till then, the next time i update, it is bye for now...

2004-06-29T16:15:00.000+08:00

i am finally back after a loooong rest... well i was lazy to write... hehe thats why.. alot of things happened... my birthday, my fren's birthday, and more and more... hehe.. well i will jus say some happy things.. i think my blog has too many sad entries to begin with... welll mi birthday was a real happy affair... mi frens celebrated it wif mi... had quite alot of things that i kinda wanted.. so a big thank you to them... then in the evening had dinner at a thai restaurant... well wun say so much... lets talk bout saturday...i had 2 lunch appointments.... had quite alot of fun in the first one but could not say much in the second... but overall it was nice... hehe... well today is such a fun day.. even though i had lessons... but this morning.. mi bro jus pissed mi off.. or should i say the whole family... i jus forgot to give my dad to sign my report book... then when i gave it to him, he started nagging at mi... that was still ok.. i am used to it.. then mi idiot bro jus had to piss mi off... he said he played mechcommander and he still could score good results.. shit him... he still had the cheek to talk to mi... i jus ignored him and bang alot of things on mi way out.. lucky when i was in the lib and played some fun games... go play hamsterball.. veri fun!!! then i am still here jus updating mi blog...well someone is tellin to go home... hehe well i will end here.. when i am free, i will come in again ok?
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2004-06-18T16:47:00.000+08:00

well... its been along time... this few days not really in the mood to even update... wanna jus enjoy myself to the fullest... but i wonder sometimes if i can even do that.. had a really fun week since the last time i updated.. even though i had to go to school for boring lessons that makes me wanna sleep everytime the teacher starts talkin... well i still manage to survive... i went to the lib practically everiday and jus relax... could put it as a hiding place for mi to get away from things i dun wanna know or do.... or even go back to my home... cuz my parents would start naggin mi to start this... and stop that.. haiz... had a realli fun time on tuesday n wednesday though... had something to do withe water... went to my fren's house and tried to play in the water.. a way of trying to get rid of my phobia of swimming pools or anywhere with water... my frens realli help me and it somehow got better when i went to wild wild wet on wed... everyone who haven been there yet, please go... go try all the rides especially the 90 degree slide and the big group slide.... i dunno wat is it called so i gave a name for it myself... realli enjoyed myself there... when i got home kinda got a scoldin ffom my parents for coming home so late everytime and also my bill... haizz it actually went up to 93 dollars... shocking but at least it was better than my bro's 100 dollars... thursday was jus a boring day.. however today... i did something that made me feel so weird... hmm not going to elaborate... but jus realli weird.. and i wanna apologise to my fren... i know i should not do that... realli sorry... hope u are not angry... well that is all for today... till next time!!!

2004-06-11T16:49:00.000+08:00

here i am updating now... even though the day has not ended yet.. well i am having a severe sore throat that cause mi to lose my voice.... since the day has not ended today i will write what i did yesterday... went to school to talk crap with my frens during phyics... then went lib and had my nails polished.... black and white... so nice!!! love it even though some people said it was ugly and looks like a monster.. but who cares... also went to my bro's lab to talk to him..saw earth and sx too.. played around alittle and i retreated back to lib to play the com.. later had a call from my frens to go out.. left but found out i had no money to watch a movie... pitiful mi.. had to make a u-turn after reaching yishun... went home and slack alot before going on to enjoy my usual serial on thursday.... later i had a conference and i lost my voice totally... was squeezing my heads off trying to talk to them.. and my frens were laughing their heads off like a mad dog... now i ahve another new nickname.... called ah ma.. thanks to them.. haiz voice realli sucks... today bought nail polish to pamper myself and also took some medicine... well pray and hope my voice can be cured... and then i wun sound like a chicken crowing on sunday.. well i will end here today...

2004-06-08T12:37:00.000+08:00

so sorry haven been updating my blog.. my com kinda gave me some problems and thus was unable to update my blog... well alot of things have happen these few days.. went out to enjoy myself and also was trying to fix my computer... and also i am fallin sick soon sucks man.. thought i could enjoy myself during the holidays but it seems i cant.. my parents keeps nagging that i should practice my maths and not always go out.. well i will do that but wait till i enjoyed myself thoroughly first hehe... yesterday was the most shocking day... i actualli overslept and miss my maths remedial... i woke up at 1.44p.m... first time ever.. the best part was i actualli gave my friends morning calls but i still ended up oversleeping.. wonder what my teacher would say when i go for his lesson next week.. well jus see how it goes.. today is my friends birthday so i will wish her a very happy birthday!! hope she stays happy always... well dont realli have the mood to write so much today.. still kinda tired and sick.. lucky my com is still functional if not god knows how long more will i be able to update my blog.. once again my apologises to everyone!!

2004-05-31T17:51:00.001+08:00

hehe.. so long never update my blog.. well could say i was busi studying hard...even though it did not help for today's paper.. whatever... even had alot of good lucks yesterday but oh well... today was such a stressful day.. had the o level chinese paper.. everione was so quiet and focused on it even though i sat in the second seat... everone realli obeyed the teachers... kinda sucked today.. got realli tired halfway and rested for awhile but then remembered this was o levels!!! woke up and found out not enough time but well luck was on my side and i finished it... whew.. but anyway still suck jus hope i can pass.. after that i could say i was free!!! bought a nail polish to reward myself and had lunch with wenzhi even though she realli crap alot.. came home went net and my phone was asking me to see the movie harry potter... but as usual my parents did not allow me cuz it was at 7.. what the hell.. why do they always restrict me to things that i wanna do? why? and as usual my bro gets to go to a concert at 7 plus... haizz what is the difference between guys and girls... ain't we all humans? haizzz when mum came home she started talking and asking questions.. felt so irritated and she asked me why... i was already so pissed and everything... maybe it could be the lack of sleep... i dunno well see how it goes.. i am big enough already to think for myself and go out!!! arghhhh... piss off sia.. well all for today!

2004-05-28T15:50:00.000+08:00

haizz.... i am so utterly embarrassed now..... arghhhh.... i jus made a stupid sound and earth was laughing like a mad dog... ok i was also laughing like mad.. but but nt as mad as earth... today was such a sad day too.... Mrs Ong is leaving today...it is her last day.. it was all too sudden... she jus made an announcement that she was leaving for good... i was controlling my tears all this while.. but the moment came when i could not control it anymore.... she hugged me and tears just fell down my cheeks.... i was realli sad that she is leaving... she did not state the reason but i knew it must be something bad realli happen for her to make such a decision... it must have been realli hard on her.. she was a very good teacher even though there was some times that i did not understand the way she did some things.. i guess many people actualli misunderstand her... i hope that you can clear your doubts bout her cuz she is really a veri nice and she is a teacher who realli cares for her students.... oh and i just learnt the meaning of saran poon poon today... damn hilarious sia... now i know her weakness... muahahaha.... i will get my revenge...... as u all know who she is rite? haha... at least coming to mr gan's lab realli cheered me up... even though i found we have somehow drifted apart.. but i hoped that we could get to how we used to be... i guessed it is kinda my fault that this has happened.. if i had.... if only i did....sometimes i feel so helpless at things happening around me... they happen and i cant do anything to change it but only watch it pass.... sometimes i hate myself the way i am... i feel like changing the way i feel inside like becoming stronger and the courage to stand up to things... but sadly i am not.... well i heard some things bout jq that made me change my opinion of him... i guess he is jus being misunderstood.... the things he do, all he wants is some friends but the things we do to him are realli hurting him... the way we treat him.. like hating him and he pissing us off... well i feel so sorry now... i am gonna change and get to know him better. i hope i can.... well that is all for today...

2004-05-27T20:19:00.000+08:00

ok.. i am back with another post.. even though nothing much to write except had a very bad stomache... haizzz... for maths kenna suan by mr chew again... one day i am going to have my revenge... i swear.. must wait until july... you just wait mr chew... i will make sure you never suan me again... muahahahaha.... the thing that happen was... his computer could not work and i jus happen to be there cuz i could not see the corrections clearly.. and he looked at me and i was like what i never do anything... then he said you come here then electric shock the com so thats why cannot work... then i was like what the hell... but after awile he managed to on it.. so he had nothing else to say... haizzz must wait now for the right chance to suan him.. later today had a list on when i need to come back.. damn sian.. maths lesson is from 1-3 so late lor.. but i have to go.. haizzz.. if dont go must produce MC.. hmmm maybe i should get one for the sake of not seeing his face and giving him a chance to suan me.. hehe.. today that idiot girl never come... why? is she so afraid to face us cuz she betrayed us? it must be... just wait till she comes back and i will make sure i question until everything comes out including the juice... arghhhhh.. damn pissed off.. well i think i know why i am having mood swings now.. guess is because of that thing... arghhhh.. well that is all for today!!!

2004-05-26T21:25:00.000+08:00

haizzz.. today is not a very good day for me... i feel that nowadays my mood so weird... when in school i am so happy and can talk alot of crap.. but i found out that when i am home, i cant seem to talk with my parents and i always seem so moody... everything changes when i am at home.. haizz also dunno why.. then today never go school... sleep until damn late... 9 plus then wake up.. hehe.. but i had sore eyes.. is this what i get for not going to school... sigh... well went for dental appointment and later met uo with my mum to buy things... then went back home.. as i was waiting for the bus, my friend called me and told me one of my friends betrayed us... haizzz why do friends like to do this... we told her bout a girl we hate and what she did... this friend actually told the girl what we said bout her... cant she jus shut up and keep this things to herself.. it is obvious that this kinda things should not be said out loud and she had the cheek to do it.. haizzz why do these kinda friends exist.. i thought we could trust her.. but i guess i was seriously wrong.. oh well.. dun wanna write anymore.. i am really sad now no mood to write anymore.. jus thinking bout what happen has really affected my mood.. haizzz

2004-05-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

well... here i am again with another post.. so now i will be writing in complete english sentences so people can understand them.. hehe well.. nothing much really happen yesterday and today except some funny things happen yesterday.. hmmm.. i always seem to write alot bout yesterday.. maybe because i am lazy to write sometimes so don't mind me!! hehe okie back to yesterday.. after school went to meet my mum cuz i lost my ring rite? so i wanted to get the ring asap.. so i arrived half an hour late.. but my mum did not complain cuz she is such a patient person.. haha.. then went to far east to buy my ring.. it was the same lady who served us on friday... she could recognise us so good rite? hehe then she gave us a discount card.. so next time can get 5% discount.. hehe.. so after that went to long john silver to have lunch.. waited so long before our food came and the worst part was the lady did not believe we were the ones who ordered the food and went to the cashier to clarify.. stupid idiot!! why would we be sitting there if we did not order food? how stupid can a person get? later i could not even eat in peace.. i was sitting with one of my legs on the other leg 90 degrees(the very unslightly way) so then this malay lady looked at me and pointed to my leg.. told me to put them down.. what the hell!!! shit her!! what is her problem? cant i sit the way i want to? so throughout my meal i was damn uncomfortable had to put my legs down and together or that lady would start complaining again.. then after eating had things stuck on my braces.. so irritating.. getting on my nerves... how i wish i could remove my braces soon but no such luck.. haizzz then i bought a bag that can be carried around... my friend said that it could not fit my discman... but guessed what? it could!!! so good sia.. my discman is something i cant live without.. it is the best thing that was ever created.. hehe.. after that went home.. i was so angry in the night after dinner... my mum actualli found my long lost ring in my school skirt while she was ironing... and i wasted my money to buy another one... arghhhh.. so pissing.. cuz the second ring i had to pay for it myself and my mum bought the first ring so haizz waste money for nothing.. i could go for a meal!!! then i go and buy ring... that was for yesterday.. well today did nothing much except talking n gossiping during lessons.. i was not even paying attention at all.. the teacher mr lim was asking us if we understood and he was looking at us.. but we did not care just nodded our head.. hehe i think he must be realli angry but he really has such a nice temper so i think he will forgive us for it... hehe... then after school went to lib to finish up the magazines... had bubble tea today.. .so nice haha well got a new website that has alot of games.. quite fun to play the games but one of it involves killin and after that they show you the intestimes coming out... the brain and some other things... those interested to know.. tag me.. i will tell you... damn sadist sia.. well in the night which is now.. jus watch tv n abit of studying.. so that was my 2 days.. hehe gonna stop now and go to sleep cuz i am not going to school tomorrow... got dental appointment... hehe so must have alot of rest.. this is so good.. i am free to sleep and wake up without having to go to school!! well good luck guys!! 4 periods of intensive!! haha enjoy!! ooops i am so bad..ok hmmm well just sleep in class so it will not be so bad ok? hehe well will end now!

2004-05-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

well so sorri nv update yesterday... was practicalli out the whole day.. did nt haf time n in the nite mi bro was usin it.. well yesterday had 2 birthday parties to attend n left in the afternoon first went to my father's fren hse fr housewarmin n the first birthday party.. i found out sumthing kinda shockin.. my father's fren is actualli a external examiner in ngee ann poly n his wife is a teacher there... actualli wanted to go there to study bt nw i am hafin second thoughts bout it.. went around their new home.. quite nice bt i nearly gt lost.. the place is quite big.. then later played on the playground.. they put it was fr kids aged 2 to 5 bt i think it is realli dangerous fr them wonder hw they build it.. nt even safe at all.. then later went to the 5 to 12 years old bt found it was even more dangerous.. the see-saw sit awhile backside pain... dunno why they build so dangerous things.. then later haf a chat wif the birthday gal.. u know the present we gave her is i choose one.. haha so honoured cuz she tis year 21 years old.. hehe then left to go fr the next one which is my grandfather's birthday.. went to clementi n then had to walk to some veri remote place... dun even know where we were goin.. as usual gt lost again bt lucky wif some help, we managed to gt there.. well waited fr awhile before all mi relatives came.. as usual they keep askin mi to eat bt then i wanted to wait fr grandfather to cum before eating... so irritating... then mi bro made a comment bout hw everione is getting older n i was noddin mi head like hell cuz i agreed totally! then after dinner came home had a rest n had a quarrel wif mi bro cuz he was bein such a nuisance.. accusing mi of something i did nt do.. dunno say i 'invited' a virus into the com.. wat the hell!! ain't it workin fine? shit him.. then today did nt do much except watching a movie troy... damn nice!! recommend u, go watch it! well also found out i lost mi ring... it had mi name engraved on it n i lost it.. haizz oh well nvm gonna buy another one... mus make up fr it.. aniwae gtg nw so late alreadi

2004-05-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

well today was a sad day in the afternoon n a happier day in the evenin.. so mani things ahppened today... firstly had 3 periods of chinese and as usual it realli sucked.. i think the teacher have something against me cuz she kept pinpointing mi... like mi compo... she said if i dunno anithing dun write if nt underline here n there.. wat the hell... haizzz maybe she is rite bt do she have to say it so loudly.. so embarrassing then later again she ask the clz "ding sheng the ding is one line or two lines" then they say one then she say sherry hw cum u still write wrongly? haizzz watever.. then later fr last period gt back ss marks... i gt quite gd fr section A then got realli bad fr sectin B... haizzz when i let mrs haugen see she say i should deserve better... stupid teacher hu mark the ss paper sectin B make mi score so low..... she sucks... then later went fr leo club meeting kenna scoldin by mdm aishah say wanna close down leo club.. better still then i dun hafta see her face animore stupid sia... then later went out wif mi fren go shopping.. spent all mi money.. hmmm maybe i should save more and nt be such a spendthrift bt then cannot lah... nw gt so mani nice things available.. then later went fr concert n pon leo club duty... realli scared then actualli thought mdm aishah veri angry cuz sum1 bluff mi bt in fact nt lor.. she even smile at mi.. if i noe i dun even go down then i dun haf to rush n change clothes n kenna whole boby sweat... make mi worry fr nth oso kenna suan by 2 taechers today haizz.. concert was quite nice today so i think i realli enjoyed miself tonite even though was quite sad in the afternoon... well gonna stop nw cuz realli veri tired alreadi..

2004-05-20T21:52:00.000+08:00

forget to add some things... well i was jus killing rice weevils jus now..well maybe to cheer mi up...ok i am a sadist.. well mi father was doin it so ya well thought it was fun so i ya... did the same.. feel realli sucky whenever i gt home cuz i noe i haf to tell mi folks bout mi results bt i duno hw to say.. dun wan them nagging at mi like always... sometime i realli feel like tellin them to stop bothering mi n leave mi alone... haizz bt if they do tat.. then why would they be called parents rite? haizz watever lucky i still haf mi discman then i can listen n ignore everione... jus heard a new song bt to pple it is old haha i am nt updated.. it sounds realli nice n soothing... so it is nw mi favourite song until i find a better one... it is called Here Without You..

sheery899

2004-05-20T20:53:00.000+08:00

Today was an ok day.. got back my results n found out i failed 3 of them.. mood was quite jumpy. haizzz well watever jus hope everithing turns out rite... i told him bout my results n i cant believe he actualli said hw could i fail? this realli sucks.. i thought he would like mabe console mi like hw mi other frens did.. bt he actualli said tat.. wat the hell... oh well see how it goes... thats all fr today.. sorri nt realli in the mood to write..

2004-05-18T22:20:00.000+08:00

well, first time writin a blog... unfamiliar wif alot of things. Well i wanna thank Arlene to help mi create the whole blog. That is all for today. When i am familiar wif the blog then i will write more...